Goal to Lose Weight...

So now that I have delivered my baby exactly one month ago, I want to now lose weight! I currently weight 203, well at least that was what I weighted Monday of last week so I will go from that. I want to lose at least 28 to 43. I want to lose it before August or at least before the year is over. I hope this time I can achieve my goal, last year I had signed up to a gym, was walking, was eating somewhat less, and drinking coffee. I was looking thinner from the face, and seemed to be loosing inches, and lost 5 pounds but then I got pregnant and I gained weight and reached 229 pounds by the day I delivered my baby. Well I starting my weight-loss journey tomorrow. I am motivated because I have gained weight from having my baby and I am so flabby from my stomach from the sudden loss of weight at birth so we gotta tighten that up for sure oh and my face is gross(sp)!.

My plan is to walk in the mornings for at least an hour and eat less. I do not really like exercising and am a lazy person so let's see how this goes!

...and no I do not have pride for being lazy, I just am.

My Beautiful Baby Daughter...

The day came, time to get induced! I did not sleep at night...slept maybe 2 hours and woke up around 3:50 to get ready to head to the hospital at 5am and be there at 5:30am. I was there exactly at 5:30am letting the labor people know I was there in the waiting room. I waited and waited, 6 am, 7am, 8 am, 9am, 10 am, 11am, 12pm, 12:30pm...what the heo!! I was getting so frustrated and even called my mom that I might as well go back home. I thought they had forgotten about me. Finally at 1:00 pm or so I was called in. I was taken to the labor room and told to undress and put on the backless gown. I removed my clothing and went to sit on the bed where I would have my little girl. The first thing done was to put a monitor on my stomach to track babies heart rate, then I was asked questions about my health and such. After a while a different nurse came in and I got connected to the IV, so I could start getting hydrated, then I was a connected to the antibiotics. Afterwards I was connected to the Pitocin and from there I was asked a few more questions. The nurse left and I started watching A&E's 48 hours, something like that. The show was so interesting especially since the crime was based in the city I live in and the places the investigators went where in my neighborhood. Okay so then I started to contract maybe around 2:30pm. Contractions where not that bad they where bearable with breathing in and out, then after a while they got stronger the pain was an 8 from a scale of 1 to 10. Then by 5:00pm the pain was so much to handle from a scale to 1 to 10 the pain was a 10! That is when I called the nurse and asked for an epidural. The epidural lady came in a few minutes later and she applied/injected it but I don't think she did it right because they did not make me make my back hard or bend all the way and she was just poking around all over my back. I did not even feel the needle. I did feel liquid spreading in my lower back which I thik was to numb my lower back? Okay she finished, so I asked them when I was going to feel the epidural and they said from 10-15 minutes. Hmmm that is too long because my pain was so much, and all of a sudden not even 5 minutes into the epidural, I felt so much pressure not in the stomach but at my bottom. Pressure as if the baby wanted to come out, the pain from a scale of 1 to 10 was 10! I was crying, SHAKING, SHIVERING, stretching, hitting the bed, grabbing my face. It hurt. The nurse said that I was doing good and we where waiting on the doctor. Waiting that I thought was taking forever. I just felt that this pain was never going to end. The doctor came, they propped my legs up to my chest, at this time my brother went running out of the room, and I pushed, pushed, pushed, pushed, pushed, and pushed, a total of 7 but less than 10 times to get my baby out. I heard a pop which was me tearing and saw the baby at 6:06pm, I was so happy she was out, complete, and alive! I wasn't really paying attention to my child at this point, I was more concerned to what they where doing down there to get me back together. I think I tore because of the position I was placed. I was also texting my brother and mom to stop knocking on the door that they could not come in! They didn't understand I was becoming pissed off. I was however, just thinking about everything and plenty of thoughts where towards my baby girl. After they finished they handed me the baby for about and hour. My mother, youngest brother, and my son where all so happy carrying my baby, kissing her, and telling her she was beautiful. I was so happy that I did not have c-section, so happy my baby was in my arms, so happy that the labor was not as bad as I thought. I thought I was going to be there for hours, I was just in the labor room in labor for about 5 hours, not bad. I am so happy, I love my baby I never imagined her to be so beautiful and healthy. The pain is all worth it. The wait to get induced was all worth it. The 41 weeks(39weeks per conception) where all worth it. There is no better pain than giving birth. There is no better wait than to wait for my child. There is no better time than to be pregnant with my little angel.

Inducement and My 5 year old Son...

OMG, I am so excited tomorrow is the day I get induced. I am scared for the fact that I am going to be induced and I really do not want that, but at the same time excited I will finally see my baby. I hope everything comes out good and she comes out alive. That is like the whole point I am getting induced so that she will not be stillborn if we wait until the 42 weeks or until labor starts naturally. So I must wake up at 4 am in the morning to take a shower  and get ready to head to the hospital. I am excitedddd!

Also I don't know what to think, I am so worried for my son. He is 5 years old but has been having pains in his knees/legs since he was around 2 or 3 years old. My mom had said it all started since one day he was playing with some girls and fell on the concrete really bad. He has had x-rays and nothing seems damaged or to worry. They say it might be growing pains, but I do not see that he is growing, and even if it is growing pains I do not want to see him hurting and crying. I want him to be pain free, I do not know what to do. My mother gives him massages and gives him ibuprofen or whatever that is called, but I am scared to hurt him more if I massage his knee and also taking medicine all the time makes medicine not work for you in the long run doesn't it? I just hope that it is nothing bad and that it is for a fact growing pains and that it stops soon. I don't want him to be an adult and still hurting, Pain causes lots of setbacks in peoples lives especially him that he is a boy. I hate seeing my child in pain. :(

Going to be induced at 41 weeks, 1 day pregnant. What the HEO.

So I am getting induced on Friday. I really do not see them FREAKEN point as I am doing fine and supposedly the baby is too. They just don't want the baby to get too big as it weights 8 pounds based on the sonogram. Like really, is a sonogram 100% accurate? Why do they have to base a pregnancy on my the last period? I was not pregnant nor was I trying two weeks before conception. I know for a fact the date I tried to get pregnant and it was June 12, 2011 and had implantation on June 19, 2011. I should have lied about my last period date. My first son I did the "act" to conceive him on November 14, 2005, and it was the only day we tried. I was afterwards pregnant. Back then I did not keep up with my periods so I just guessed a date and told my OB/GYN that guessed date. She at around 5 months did a sonogram and told me my due date was September 7 to September 11. I had my son on August 25. I calculate the weeks I was pregnant from conception on that pregnancy and I had him at 40 to 41 weeks, so therefore I was 42 to 43 weeks pregnant if we add two weeks to my calculation. My son was fine, he was healthy. I really just think inducements are done without REAL motives. Like the first thing the doctor tells you, "do you want me to induce you so you can get this over with?" Hmm...it will eventually be over with, and who says pregnancy is easy? Huhh...like really is a pregnancy supposed to be fun? I think we should be allowed to wait out until the baby is born naturally. It really sucks that I am going to be induced, my worst fear especially when c-section is a possibility. They better NOT do a c-section on me. I am just inducing because doctors are the ones that are pressuring me because of babies size. I rather have a 10 pound baby than have a c-section. Mannn...I hope I start labor on my own while I drive to the hospital, please please please God. Probably I will not go into labor as I have no signs of it, but a miracle could happen. I know, I know it is dangerous to go into labor(contractions) while driving. Okay, so if I am getting induced as long as c-section is not a possibility I will be somewhat happy.

I might be wrong as I am not a pregnancy expert, but as I said I for sure do not want to have an unnecessary operation. Well, even though I am complaining I just want my baby to be healthy that is all I am really wanting. I love my daughter.

Clothing Store Mirrors Make You Look Good!

So I am looking at lots of clothing I purchased last week. I love clothes. So you know how sometimes you try clothes in the fitting room. I am not that very fond of trying clothes on at stores I am kind of embarrassed but when I do I feel like I am some type of model. I am not saying I am fine, but those mirrors make me feel like I am skinny, my skin is clean and pretty, my body is well formed, my hair is well groomed...dang I LOOK GOOD. I look at myself and totally with no doubt am buying what I have on, then I get home and I look in the mirror and am like "What was I thinking? This makes me look fatter!!" ALSO what happened to my blemish, red veins, brown spot free face? I want to know what type of mirrors these are because I want one for my room. :) My self-esteem would soar in positive and healthy levels.

40 weeks, 3 days Pregnant

So today I am 40 weeks and 3 days pregnant, but based on my calculations today I am 40 weeks from my conception date and 39 weeks if we base it on implantation. Anyways, the scary part is that I have to schedule to be induced next week! I do not want to be induced but then the OB scared me because he said my child is big and that there are possibilities of stillbirth if I wait any longer. I do not want my baby to die so I am calling next week to induce. I do not know when to schedule the induction date...maybe Friday? So I will be closer to my 39 week mark based on MY calculations and not the doctors? Well, I hope I go in labor naturally before I become induced. This is so weird my whole pregnancy I though I was going to have my baby early even though I never had contractions, I just had a "feeling". I guess my "feeling" was incorrect. Well I'll see how this goes. If I do not update...I might be dead. :o









Necesito verte donde quiera que estés
Te quiero, te quiero, te quiero
Y no hago otra cosa que pensar en ti
Solo vivo y respiro para ti
Te quiero, te quiero,
te quiero, te quiero
Te Quiero Bebita <3

40 Weeks, 2 Days Pregnant....

I want to be in labor so bad as of right now. I am so nervous I just hope I am able to come home with a healthy, living baby. I hope, as I previously mentioned, that I do not have to be induced nor have a c-section. That would be horrible. Having a baby is so stressful, pregnancy is not that bad...the bad part is worrying about how labor is going to go...not much because of the pain but of the outcome of the baby or if I am going to get out of the hospital alive.

Ok so I went to Babycenter dot com [http://www.babycenter.com] and I entered the date of June 12, 2011, the day I may have conceived and my due date is Sunday, March 4, 2012.

Also I entered the date of June 19, 2011, the day I might have conceived based on my implantation bleeding and my due date is Sunday, March 11, 2012

I also entered the date of May 26, 2011, the first day of my last period and my due date is Thursday, March 1, 2012.

My doctors gave me the due date of March 1 or 3, 2012. I do not remember but I am more inclined to the March 4 and March 11. So I am not going to my 40 week appointment because I do not want to be sent to the hospital because they are going to want to do any unneeded practices on me.

I know this is a bad decision but the last ultrasound I had this Thursday the fluid level was okay and the baby was okay, so this makes me believe my decision is not too bad. Let's just see because I might end up going to my scheduled appointment.

Sigh.

Based on my doctors due date estimate:
March 1, 2012 would be 40 weeks.
March 4, 2012 would be 40 weeks, 3 days.
March 11, 2012 would be 41 weeks, 3 days.

39 Weeks Pregnant...

Today I went to my 39 week pre-natal appointment. I had an internal exam and no progress. I am so scared I almost reach my due date and I really do not want to be induced nor have a c-section. I hope I start dilating as soon as possible and worse off supposedly based on today's ultrasound my daughter weights 8 pounds. Well I just hope everything comes out right with her, if I have to be induced or have a c-section as long as my baby is healthy and lives a happy happy life. I love my daughter. I love my kids, and the ones I hope to have later on in life. Love.

Live Like You Are Dying - Shane Dawson

I love this song. Start living like you are dying...yeah...go out and do all the crazy crazy chet you have never ever done before...yeah

My 5 year old son hanging out with a Ghost?

Usually I see my 5 year old son on my laptop watching Youtube videos of video games on characters he loves or playing online games, and while doing this he is laughing, arguing, high-fiving, and explaining things to someone. I was thinking he was just talking while playing. Today he was explaining something to someone and was extending his arms and looking up to the right as if he was explaining something. I asked him "con quien hablas bebe'?"("with who are you talking baby?") and happily he said with his shadow, which was God and he was good and he can be here anytime he wants. Then my mother came into the room after finishing taking a shower and I told her, and my son said "I did not say my shadow! I said my ghost!" and my mom was happy saying "oh he always talks to his ghost.

So I immediately got on the laptop and got on Google and entered "my son talks to a ghost"...I kinda became scared of everything my son was doing because I am a HUGE Ghost hater as I am scared of just hearing the word, I wont sleep and I will look behind my back constantly when I hear anything related to that word.

Ok, so I clicked on a link directing me to a mother's website. Many women where saying their children where also talking to ghost, playing with ghost, and so and so. Then there were some where their children were scared or that they did not believe they where seeing such things.


I think we should never doubt our children because children do not lie, and if they do that is a different story, but we should never doubt a story told by them. What if it is not a ghost but a person entering the home at night? You never know.

I am a paranoid parent, I am always looking out for my son. I was a child once and children are to be believed and protected.

...Back to the ghost part. I am so scared of ghost, but the comforting part about my son hanging out with this "ghost" is that he said it i God, and it is good. So that makes me believe that it might be a guardian angel?

I'm kinda scared just of the thought of the unknown...

38 weeks, 1 day Pregnant...

So I went to my 38 week ob/gyn appointment, had my internal exam :/ the doctor said I was "2". I really do not know what "2" means in pregnancy. I had a fast ultrasound to check the weight of the baby and amniotic fluid. I am having very very light back pain, I guess they are contractions and I have lots of pressure down there. My cervix is still high and am recommended to walk, walk, walk but this weather does not help at all it has been raining basically every day and worse I do not have clothes to go out. I just have one pair of jeans, one pair of sweats, and 2 pair of shorts(with holes) to wear at home. All my clothing is in a storage building so I have to wear the same clothing and bra basically everyday. That is what happens when you move-in to your parents small home, I have sooo much stuff we have to try to make space for my things before I even bring them. I hope I have my baby this weekend but first let me finish my American National Government final exam essay which is worth 250 points of my grade.

37 weeks, and 6 days Pregnant

I am so anxious to have my baby girl. I say it is a girl because the OB/GYN has told me it was a girl 3 times and also for some reason I feel it is a girl and people since the beginning have been telling me it is a girl based on my stomach growth to the sides rather than to the front. Well I hope it is a girl as I have purchased a few dresses for the baby. Other than being anxious about having my baby is that I hope and please GOD, I hope my baby is healthy. I have been having complications with this pregnancy that the doctor does not seem to care. Maybe they are not "bad" complications but I have been reading online and they seem to be. I am not going into detail about the issues.

Anyways, I just hope my baby is as healthy and happy as my first son. I have dreamed of this day for a long time, as my son is 5 years old and it is time for him to have a little sibling. I did not take a long time to have another child because I couldn't, I just waited a long time because I don't like the idea of having kids to close to each other. Plus I am young I am 24, I don't have the necessity to have all these kids if I can barely handle a 5 year old who asks constant questions and never shuts up<3. I love my smart little boy. I love children and feel they deserve the best in life. I want to bring my children into this world to live happy lives. Life is too short to be always sad about life like I was growing up seeing my parents fight and never be happy with one another as a FAMILY.

...the only contractions I have had are mild back contractions and down "there" pressure when walking, also right now it is 1:28am and I can't sleep because my "area" hurts I feel so much pressure. I however am sooo sleepy. I am also going to the bathroom a lot, I hope this is a good sign of labor approaching this week!! I hope so I really want the baby to be born on the 19th the day I met her daddy. February 19.


My Calendar of Events lol

-August 26, 2011 - First day of period

-June 12, 2011 - We decided on a baby. Not very formal but we did =D Day I got pregnant. Only day that we tried.

-June 19, 2011 - I had implantation bleeding. Maybe this is the day I got pregnant due to the implantation bleeding?

-June 22, 2011 - Supposed to have had my period.

-June 30, 2011 - Noticed light bleeding

-August 13, 2011 - First OB/GYN check-up - STD testing, and first ultrasound

-Some time after I had light bleeding

-September 10, 2011 - 2nd OB/GYN check-up - Ultrasound, it's a Girl.

- October 8, 2011 - 3rd OB/GYN check-up - Ultrasound, it's a Girl again.

-November 5, 2011 -4th OB/GYN check-up- MISSED CHECK-UP

-November 29, 2011 -4th OB/GYN check-up - Ultrasound, it's a Girl once again.

-December 10, 2011 -Dentist - Root Canal and prep for Crown

-December 17, 2011 -5th OB/GYN check-up - Glucose test

-December 30, 2011 -6th OB/GYN check-up-MISSED CHECK-UP

-December 31, 2011 -Dentist - molding for Crown

-January 21, 2012 -Dentist - Crown!!

-February 2, 2012 -6th OB/GYN check-up - Internal exam...my cervix is too high.

-February 9, 2012 -7th OB/GYN check-up -Internal exam...pointless he just stuck his fingers up there and took them out fast, no informational data was given to me and my stuff hurt so bad.

-February 16, 2012 -8th OB/GYN check-up

-March 3, 2012 - Due date based on OB/GYN

Learn a Language...

I love languages even when I do not understand what others are saying. That is the whole reason I love languages because I do not understand the language and it makes me want to learn what these people are saying. I know when I speak Spanish people around me want to know what I am saying. I used to understand, read, and write in French, but I don't ever hear anyone speaking French nor do I have the need to use it, therefore, I do not speak it. I often hear Arabic and Vietnamese and these two languages are of my interest. Today, I went to Half-Price books and purchased two small phrase books on both Arabic and Vietnamese. I will soon be able to at least say Hi, Can I help you?, Bye, and Thank you, and other basic words or phrases that are very useful for communication with others who do not speak English well. Knowing more than one language is not a bad thing, it is a very very good thing! Never hate on anybody because they speak other languages other than English (example). Instead of hating how about you try to learn another language just for fun. It is worth it!

Protect Our Children

Parents, we have our children and bring them to this world to offer them the best life possible. Not always with luxuries but with love and their everyday necessities. We have to look out for our children not just give them life. There is always signs of abuse in a child usually if he or she is scared of something all of a sudden or cranky, and so many other things. Maybe the child is naturally scared of everything, shaky, cranky, and so forth, but we should never rule anything out. Sometimes the most trusted person can be the abuser - the father, stepfather, sister, brother, aunt, uncle, grandmother, grandfather, friend, babysitter, stepmother, step-brother, step-sister, and worse off the own mother. Sometimes parents and guardians give trust to public figures or people with status too much trust, teachers, doctors, police, and such may have weird sick minds that we do not know what is flowing through their brain. Children are innocent beings they have no way of defending themselves, we as adults have to defend our children, and not only our own blood children, but any child we see may be abused either physically, mentally, or sexually. We need to stand up for our children, maybe it could end up being a false alarm, but the effort to save a child's present and future is up to us!! Remember you where once a child too.

Kinto Sol - Ella Se Fue

No hay nada mas triste que una casa vacia, la mujer q queria se fue por culpa mia, ahora extrano su simple compan~i'a y las cosas hermosas q ella me decia, sin embargo yo no correspondia sabiendo q sufria me da melancolia ciego estaba muy mal q la trataba y por mucho tiempo con otra la enganaba...

Cheating Evidence lol...

Thanks to FB you can catch your partner if he is cheating on you!!! So I have added people that I been knowing for a long time. When I accept I realize they have several people on my list as their friends in common, that means this is a small small world and cyber world also. Then people tag where they are at all the time, and most mexican guys dont even realize they can block themselves from being tagged, but as most mexicans think they are not going to get caught cuz they don't realize some of us know how to use a computer or a cellphone really REALLY well. Some do not have their page in private and you know if I wanted to search a dude I can just put his name on the search thing and then read what he is saying to other girls (yes, stalker lol)... especially when you dont have your page on private everything you type on facebook can be searched on other internet data bases plus if you leave comments on other peoples pages who have public profiles even if your page is set to private, what ever you put can be searchable by your stalker girlfriend...think about it LOL

Little kids outside my apartment at night ALONE

How come I always see little kids outside my apartment at night ALONE...where are their parents? That is why children get kidnapped, raped, killed...parents should be outside with their children making sure they are safe... :/

El Español y La Gente Hispana

Yo admiro a la gente que no es hispana y habla español, porque hay mucha gente que es hispana y no lo habla...en mi familia soy una de las unicas que habla español...y luego eh convivido con "gringos", "chinos", "negros" que hablan el español fluido! Yo digo que si hablas otro idioma aparte de Ingles deberias de enseñarle a tus hijo, no duele saber uno o dos o tres idiomas mas...

Promocion de Las Redes Sociales Por La Radio y Television :/

Habeces yo no quiero entrar a mi facebook pero hasta en la radio o television ya no quieren dar la noticia o el chisme completo porque dicen " pero no les vamos decir la historia, entren a nuestro Facebook o Twitter para leer la historia completa"...a quien le estan dando mas promocion estas estaciones de radio (por ejemplo)? A la red social/la internet...porque una vez q me dicen eso mejor me meto a mi Facebook y ya ni pongo atencion a lo que van a decir despues...sera una escusa para los empleados para entrar a leer sus mensajes? Ahh...

El Fin del Mundo...

El mundo no se acabara y aun peor en una tal fecha. Que no saben q en el planeta Tierra, hay hora zonas horarias??...cuando en un lado del mundo ya es el 12 de noviembre, aqui todavia es el 11 de noviembre. Asi que entonces el mundo se acabaria por partes primero china luego los estados unidos?? Ya ven...soy bien inteligente :)

10/8/2011

Una Cancion Chida...

I Don't Love..

I don't love a man, I just like a man. Try to love a man :p but at the end I don't love the man. The end.

My Absence...

I have not updated my blog in a long time due to my lack of time. I have so much stuff I would like to write about but I guess I better hold off after I clean my messy room. Bummer.

Alegres Comadres Wear Backpacks to the Club...

Got's To Be a G 'Til The Day That I Die...

GOTS TO BE A G TIL THE DAY THAT I DIE..:D)) Momma couldnt drive so she didnt have a car, and I could still see my T lady walkin' far. Sweaat on her face, purse and a grocery bag, me and my brother shit that's all we ever had.
[[True Life Story of my life]]

Anxious...

 

Currently I am worried, excited, anxious to find out the results!!

Evolucion de Rock 1960's a Trival 2011's

Los estilos de baile nunca se van nomas regresan y evolucionan de rock a trival jaja. Miren que chido se bailaba el rock en los tiempos de los Teen Tops ♥. Apoco no han visto estos movimientos en ay q decir por ejemplo el Farwest Dallas, etc. etc...cuando empieza la musica trival?

Vamos, Vamos a Darle Con Todo...

These Kids Needing Leaders, Be Your Own.

I thought it was alright.
It is gone too far.
However.
Kids following "leaders"
I guess I was there too.
Tried it
But I am not the type
To Follow other peoples rules.
I do my own.
So I started one too.
Co-founded.
Manipulative
but not me.
Broke it off.
Realize that these
Kids wanna be cool.
They listen to kids
Don't listen
To their parents.
Oh.
What a Shame.
I guess
They wanna be cool
Bring fame
To wanna be
leaders
Who don't
Even know
What To do.
These kids
Are considered
Cool
Because they be acting
A fool
Talking bout
They 14
and wanna die
because they
Broke up
With the love
of their life.
4o years
of life
and not even
half way.
Find ways to
be cool
by bringing down
others who
are having
fun
because
they can't have
fun
because
They are trying
to be cool
following
other
peoples
rules.
These kids
wanna listen
to ignorant
leaders
but do not
listen to
the law.
Needing to
have a leader
because
they do not
feel loved
Bring
fame to
the idol
Who does
not
know what
to do.
-Yadira

Celos de Un Celular.

La siguiente cancion de Arley Perez tiene mucha razon. Cuantas veces no has andado en una cita con un vato o una morra o con un amigo o amiga y se la pasan en el celular. Usualmente cuando una persona se la pasa en el celular mientras estas contigo significa que no te tiene mucha interes o esta aburrido(a). Es una de las cosas que trato de evitar almenos que la persona me caiga mal o estoy aburrida con tal persona.

Bad Luck

So as I had mentioned before I am really not good at math even if I try. I obtained an F in one of my math classes and I do not know what to do. I do not have money to pay a tutor as I live check by check. I should just give up on school? I really want to be a teacher but I am falling more and more in debt and then when I do get a degree if I ever do I bet I wont even be hired because I do not have the math skills to be a competent teacher. This is frustrating and I would say just continue on with my life as a high school graduate. Depressed.

Also I just crashed my truck and have to buy new wheels and tires ( hope that is only it ) and the window wont go up. 

Chalino Sanchez

Nobody knows just how much I love Chalino Sanchez. He is my idol I love his voice and his music. The lyrics to his music are like WOW! His voice the same way it just makes me happy and makes me go crazy like I want to go out and conversate with people and sing and dance and anything really. I do not know what my life would be without Chalino Sanchez I think I would not understand the meaning of being Mexican. I mean Chalino Sanchez is the best thing about being Mexican. He was really talented even when people say he was not. He looked like a real Mexican guy who is a real man. Un hombre no una vieja. I just hope my children love Chalino Sanchez the way I do and lets keep his trayectory and his memory alive!!

Doing My Life...A Change

So I have decided as of last night that I am going to change my life. I am going to do this for me! I will not disclose what I am going to do. It is not something drastic I am just going to make myself feel better about being me. I am finally going to put the effort into it no matter what the consequences may be. I hope there is not consequences though. So today was the start...

Yahoo! Groups

I was just remembering of a badax Yahoo! Group from back in the day. Yahoo! Groups are the best internet tool out there for your website or as a stand alone website group. It has everything you need and now they have once again added Chat rooms for all you people that like to chat.

So here I am promoting a Yahoo! Group. Call it marketing or promotion, same thing.

Nuestro Espacio de Amistades aka http://chuntaros.2ya.com

Nuestro Espacio de Amistades is the place to meet people around the world, visit when you are bored, chat, send emails, read emails, explore new things and adventures, and so much more.

If you have a website you want me to put on the spotlight on my blog let me know I will happily create a blog post for it.

Haz clic para unirte a Nuestro_Espacio_De_Amistades

My Auto Problems...

So I am having problems with my drivers side window. I am not sure if it is the regulator/motor or the switch but I am going to change out the regulator/motor on Saturday. Hope that is the problem. I wanted to do it myself but  I saw a video on youtube and it seems so hard if you do not have the right tools. On the other hand it seems so easy if you have the right tools. Well if my dad does it hope he does not have a hard time doing it and if someone else does it hope they do not charge me lots of money to fix it. One thing for sure I hope it gets fixed soon! The summer is starting and I need my free AC!! :)

Ebay Shop...

So I have found an eBay store that I absolutely LOVE! They sell all my favorite clothes at reasonable prices $40 for pants, $20 for a shirt. This may sound expensive to some but for the quality the price is so worth it. If you kn w me and have seen me wear some black pants - these pants are the ones I am talking about. So far this month I have purchased 10 of them and 5 pairs of shorts, and one pair of bermuda's. I do not know what I would do without these clothing. I used to buy from a different eBay shop where they would sell to me for just $25 per pants and shipping would be like $12 for 4 pairs of pants. For some reason they suddenly closed and my world went downhill...last week I started browsing again and to my surprise they where selling the exact same pants and I immediately hit the buy it now buttons and am stocking up on these great pants.

Yeah I just had to mention this because I am excited.

In One Second...

It is not funny how your life can be taken in just one blink of an eye. We may be laughing and having a great time, or fighting with someone then next thing you know a 8.9 Eathquake and a Tsunami hit and you are dead. People hauling your body, people crying, and people viewing the damage around the world.

...El CIELO tiene que existir y yo suelo imaginarlo…

...El CIELO tiene que existir
y yo suelo imaginarlo…

El CIELO son nuestro sueños imposibles,
mas alla d las rejas d este mundo, mi propio cielo ....
Aqui sicarios y militares serian mas que hermanos,
la biblia y el corán escritas por las mismas manos,
no habrian policias ni dictadores aqui, no habrian presidentes lacras corrompiendo hasta el fin, mirar el mundo desde arriba,
viendo pequeñas hormigas perdidas que ven pasar su vida,
ningun rey que venerar, ningun jefe al que escuchar,
pensar que aqui no hay ejercitos ni burocracias,
ni ricos politicos cinicos que contratan mafias,
solo paz y tolerancia sin ansia de poder
el cielo es un lugar hermoso que yo suelo imaginar,
ninguna ley que obedecer , ni nadie enfermo,
el jubilo eterno de ver que no pasa el tiempo,
el cielo es bello , quiero hacer de lo eterno un juego,
abrazar a mis abuelos ver a mi HERMANO de nuevo,
sabiendo que el que busca guerra aqui en la tierra se pudre,
sobre las nubes que nos cubren el amor se descubre,
y el rencor se olvida porque nada nos corrompe,
se abren todos los secretos que la humanidad esconde…

Author: Mi Primo (Ciudad Victoria, Tamaulipas)

Church and Partying

I am always asked if I go to church? My answer is No. I am not against religion nor the church. I just happen to have stopped going to church as I am a sinner. Ironic because we are all sinners and church is for us sinners to attend and hear the good word.

I spent my whole childhood reading the bible, books on the bible, and other religious books. Not because I was forced nor because I felt it was my obligation. I just read these topics because I have always loved reading and learning different things in order to expand my mind to thing in other peoples perspectives.

I have learned so much about these books on how to live life, and the consequences of our mistakes. I see the bible as a book of reflection on our lives. As sin has existed since the day's of Adam and Eve. Sin is not new. People killing, stealing, lying, having sex before marriage, sex with a married woman or man, prostitutes, rape...everything that exist today existed back in the day. Except maybe Ipads, Android Phones, and Laptops.

I do not attend mass because if I do I will stop being the person I am currently and seclude myself from the world. I do not currently want to seclude myself completely...maybe until I get married and have children. I am partially secluded as I spend hours doing homework. I do not want to remove my weekends from my fun days as I am only 23 years old. I would also feel like am a hypocrite going to church then afterwards going cruising around looking at cute or hot guys, dancing tribal (trival) with my friends, and laughing and making jokes about other people.

I know that people do not seclude themselves just because they attend church mass (Catholic), but I feel I would need to do that in order to be able to live a life based on church teachings. Temptation is very eye catching.

Life in Prison and a New Beginning?

I was recently thinking about all the prisoners guilty and innocent who do not have a secure future. Well they do have a secured future full of uncertainty and struggle. When we who have never been to jail think of someone in jail we think of them as the worst people ever. We do not want to relate, socialize, or employ them.

Why can't a ex-prisoner be given the chance of a new beginning. We all make mistakes. Think about all your mistakes? Have you encountered any consequences based on your mistakes? How does it feel? What would you like to have changed? What can you change from your past? Nothing because it is in the past.

Prisoners who are released from prison usually end up back behind a jail cell because of lack of opportunities.
Why can't we move past the mistakes and see the positives of this individual?

I understand however that many ex-prisoners are not mentally able to socialize, work, or be around others without harming or endangering the environment of others. In that we do have to analyze the person just to be precautionary.

I do contradict myself however because I believe any prisoner who was sentenced because of sexual abuse and/or any other type of torture to a child, should never be given any opportunity! Children can not defend themselves, and the trauma they will suffer for the rest of their lives is none compared to what this criminal will face.

No Cell Phone Anxiety? I Take That BACK!

Since Wednesday (yesterday) I have not had a working phone to keep in contact with the world. I thought I was going to get depressed and break down. Well actually I am calm as can be, and have not missed my cellphone. Thank goodness for a laptop and public phones otherwise I would have panicked tremendously and went ahead and had a heart attack earlier than expected.

Talking about heart attack, I feel one coming. Never had one but eating all this junk food and no exercise really is calling for an early heart attack don't ya'll think?

Fiesta!

My Phone

So I am doomed, I say. At least for a while as my phone stopped working today at around 3pm. It is a depressing feeling knowing that you do not have a form of mobile communication with the world. What if I get stranded on the freeway how am I going to call a tow truck driver, what if I am in the middle of a robbery, how am I going to call the police? Most importantly how am I going to wake up in the morning? I depend on my phone to ring and when it does not ring I wake up late. This is too serious, even when people might think living without a phone is possible. Yes, it is possible but in my case a cell phone is a necessity. I need my phone ASAP!

George Strait

I love George Strait...he rocks!!

No Television...

I haven't watched television in over 2 years and I feel disconnected from the world as I do not know what Jersey Shore is about not even what Real Housewives is about. =D)

Any news update is unknown to me and I have no topic of real current event conversations. I am lost.

Alberto Pedraza - Yadira

The Man He Didn't Have To Be...

This song titled The Man He Didn't Have To Be by Brad Paisley makes me cry. Men who take a family and does all these good things for the family even when it is not his obligation to be is so nice. There are so many who cause harm to the family while those special others do the greatest job that not even many biological fathers can do and the great dad that many children need and deserve. LOVE THE SONG.

Freedom of Speech?

So I was reading I could get in serious trouble for having a blog? Well I know that I can face serious consequences for having a blog especially in my profession, but I have a blog to type and express what I have in my mind. Having a blog is sort of like a way to relieve stress, to say what I want to say even when nobody is reading...maybe one or two viewers...maybe millions. Who knows? This is my personal blog and I write my life, opinions, and comments about everything and anything. I hope this will not be a bad experience for me as I see that many people have been punished, suspended, or fired because of their personal websites.

Que Es Un Mundo Normal?

Lei el estatus de una amistad en mi Facebook y la persona decia algo de que si algo algo el mundo seria normal. Pero me pregunto que es normal? Acaso el mundo a sido alguna vez normal? Que es normal para nosotros? La pregunta va a variar porque nada en este mundo es normal y si por alguna razon algo es normal como va a saber uno si eso es normal?
Mi respuesta es que nosotros como seres humanos nunca veremos algo "normal" porque vivemos una vida normal. Todo lo bueno y lo malo que vivemos es normal dado a que todo el mundo peca y es desobediente. El mundo seria mas tranquilo para vivir si nos comportaramos pero nada seria normal porque no sabemos que es normal. Lo que podemos decir es que la vida pudiera ser mejor si no hubiera pecado y destruccion a nuestros projimos ni a nosotros mismos.

Booger Hands, But I Want My Pupusas

So I went to the Fiesta Mart located on 4711 Airline in Houston, Texas to buy some pupusas. I ordered 1 for my mom, 2 for rafa, and 3 for me lol. So the lady placed the first pupusa in my moms plate and then she sneezed and boogers, long boogers came out of her nose and she started playing with them with her hand and then she started looking at her hand and just rubbed her hand on her apron. I was like "oh my goodness that is nasty" but I really wanted the pupusas so I went ahead and ordered. Then she asked if we wanted cole slaw and I said yes and she grabbed the slaw with her nasty hand...OH EM GEE!  Then she was also the cashier and went to handle more food without washing her hands. Hmm...I can not complain because when a stranger handles your food they will handle it like they want. If I want clean I might as well cook at home, right? :p

So Little Time, So Much To Do...

So recently I have been stressed out not only because I am lacking money to pay off my credit card but also because there is so little time in order to achieve the completion of my daily tasks. I want as I think everybody else would like to finish everything in a timely matter as scheduled. It is somehow impossible I never finish what I start. Am I slacking somehow? Maybe I need better planning skills. I did take that course recently about time and scheduling but THAT DOES NOT WORK! Let's say it does, but not to me! Ok, well see ya!

Math...

So for some reason I want to talk about MATH. Math is my LEAST favorite subject of all time. I do not understand all this functions, domain, range, equations, and all those other things involved with math. I can read, see, listen and still do not understand. As I am currently struggling with my math class is there a meaning to this struggle? Am I not trying my best? Am I being lazy? Is my brain not fully developed? I do not know. Someone might understand my struggle and explain it to me, maybe the hypothesis might be true...who knows. As I am dedicated to my school and finishing off on time and with excellent grades and learning experience. I bow to  try my best at trying to understand and will go to the extreme of dedicating my day's to Math...and lots of math. What do you think?

Changes...

So I was thinking of how much I have changed and how we all change eventually. It can be for the good for the bad or from the boring to the fun. There are so many combinations of changes. I know that I have made a lot of people mad about my ways, as I have changed a lot. The more noticeable change was noticed in my marriage. I changed my form of thinking and my personality went from super shy and I do whatever you tell me to I am shy and outgoing yet I will not do anything you tell me unless your my boss (employment), but wait I was just like that with him and no one else. I know I did wrong, but I know that I did not want to be with that person I thought I did though  because I did love this person as he was with me in the good and the bad! He did love me and cared for me but I guess it is not what I wanted for the rest of my life.

My Life

So far life has been good to me. I have made mistakes in my life and I reflect on those mistakes daily. I do however continue to make mistakes, as I am human afterall. I am so grateful of the life that our creator has given me especially when I see others who have had a bad life. Some people have gone though horrible events in their lives. Things unimaginable and sometimes those bad things have occurred to children who can not defend themselves. I believe children should be brought to life to give them the best life possible. I rather see a child spoiled than one who is always sad and paranoid because of horrible things that have made a presence in his or her life. I wish I could do something for every child in the world but unfortunately I can't.

Carlos Enrique Olvera Ortiz [Mi Primo]

No conoci suficiente a mi primo, solo lo conoci una vez en un mes de Noviembre hace 3 anhos aproximadamente y fallecio un mes de Noviembre,,,creo que hasta las mismas fechas porque fui a Tampico una semana antes del dia de Pavo o la misma semana del dia de pavo (Thanksgiving) ...y mira murio el 18 de Noviembre ya el Jueves, 25 de Noviembre va ser dia de dar gracias. Tan joven mi primo. Era el unico primo mayor que yo, pues yo tengo 23 y el tenia 24. Que descanse en paz mi primito. :c

Capturan a Cinco Zetas en una Cruenta Balacera

El Sol de Tampico

20 de noviembre de 2010

De la Redacción

Tampico, Tamaulipas.-Un elemento de la Policía Estatal Preventiva (PEP) muerto, así como cinco integrantes de un peligroso grupo de la delincuencia organizada detenidos, fue el saldo del enfrentamiento a balazos que se registró por varios minutos en calles de la colonia Petrolera Chairel y sectores aledaños, al lado poniente de este puerto.

Los delincuentes aprehendidos por elementos federales y que se encuentran a disposición de la Procuraduría General de la República (PGR) son: José Manuel Hernández Plascencia, de 20 años de edad, residente en la colonia Palmas de Tamuín en San Luis Potosí, y Rubén Estrada López, de 22, de la Circuito México No. 700 en el fraccionamiento Geovillas de Pachuca, Hidalgo.

Así como los veracruzanos Samuel Ortiz Hernández, de 28 años, con domicilio en la colonia Revolución de Poza Rica; Alfredo Solano Álvarez, de 31, de la Lomas de Infonavit en el puerto de Veracruz, y Lauro Cardona Martínez o Lauro Cardova Martínez, de 27, residente en calle Río Pánuco No. 223 en la colonia Carolina Anaya en Xalapa; todos identificados como integrantes de los "Z", quienes se encuentran en las celdas de la Policía Metropolitana con vigilancia especial por parte elementos de Agencia Federal de Investigaciones (AFI) y acusados de diversos delitos federales, según los oficios 1785 y 1790.

En tanto la Procuraduría General de Justicia del Estado de Tamaulipas informó que la persona muerta en este mismo hecho de violencia fue Carlos Enrique Olvera Ortiz, originario de Ciudad Victoria y que se desempeñaba como elemento de la Policía Estatal Preventiva (PEP) asignado a los recorridos de vigilancia en esta ciudad desde hace varias semanas.

LOS HECHOS

Según información proporcionada por la dependencia estatal, el enfrentamiento a balazos entre civiles armados integrantes del mencionado grupo delictivo y personal del Fuerzas Federales comenzó alrededor de las 00:00 horas del jueves.

Fueron varios minutos de intercambio de balazos que se extendieron por calles de ese sector y colonias aledañas, ya que al parecer los primeros se encontraban apertrechados en una casa localizado en la calle Esmeralda de la colonia Petrolera Chairel.

Ahí fueron capturados los cinco delincuentes que hasta ayer no habían rendido su declaración ante la autoridad federal y que enfrentan cargos por portación de armas prohibidas y delincuencia organizada.

En tanto, en el sitio perdió la vida el elemento de la PEP, quien al parecer estaba resguardando el inmueble pero en el momento que se registró el incidente estaba en su día de descanso, ya que no portaba el uniforme de la corporación, por lo que se desconoce e investiga qué hacía en ese sitio.

El fiscal en turno de la PGJE acudió a tomar conocimiento del deceso, mencionando que el occiso presentaba un solo impacto de bala de grueso calibre en el lado izquierdo del cuello, mismo que se alojó a la altura de las cervicales.

Asi Me Gusta Bailar El Trival...

Importancia De La Presencia De Los Padres

Hay veces que los padres piensan que ir a ver a sus hijos en la escuela es en vano y una falta de tiempo. Al contrario es un buen uso de su tiempo porque eso demuestra que el estudiante, o sea su hijo le importa. A un estudiante aunque no lo demuestre siempre le alegra la presencia de su padre o guardian en un evento que talvez usted no vea como importante. Esos recuerdos siempre estaran presentes en sus hijos.

Que tal un concierto aburrido donde va a salir su hijo e hija participando y sale y solo dice una palabra o una oracion o por un minuto. Usted dira que fue una falta de tiempo salir temprano del trabajo y la manejada y la verguense de ir a la escuela. Sera inutil pero son recuerdos de su estudiante, recuerdos que estaran presentes para toda su vida no importa que minimo fue su participacion o si estubo aburrido o grandioso el evento.

Dediquenle tiempo a sus hijos en sus juegos, conciertos, juntas, etc. etc. Aunque no se lo agradescan esos momentos nunca se borraran.

Ideas for Space?

So as many people know I have a lot of stuff. I am a compulsive buyer, if I like it I will buy it. I wont buy just one but I will buy two or three or more of the same. I have to have every color and shape. I have to have it even if it does not fit. I must have several in case one wears out I have a replacement. I have a problem that is why I am $3000 in debt and that is not including my truck and my student loans.


Well enough about my problems...I need to make space in my master bedroom, I need to organize everything and make it look pretty. What should I do any ideas? I have a few ideas, but they do not seem to be working...well they kind of do but I am just starting. Any expert ideas somewhere out there for me?

Do Joy Manganos Huggable Hangers actually work? If so I need some of those. Christmas present for me anybody? jiji

One Mistake...

It is incredible how one mistake can lead to a life full of uncertainties and even more mistakes. Sometimes it can be because you are always remembering that one mistake? Or is it because you just believe it was a mistake but it really does not have much for you to worry about or maybe it is mistakes after that mistake that are the ones to worry most about? Anyways, I truly believe that mistakes can haunt you for the rest of your life. I don't know, but I wanted to write something brief about mistakes. lol.